05/09/13 – Tim kissed my hand

Jim kissed my hand today when he came through the door.
Something more,
in fact he kissed my hand,
then pressed his forehead to it.
A gesture
of supplication or love?
or surrender
to something above
and beyond his control.

The tumour in Jim’s head takes up too much space now.
I wonder how
long we have him with us to make us laugh
with his funny faces
and sometimes
inappropriate behaviour.
Or fits.
I cannot forget his age

is the same as that of my son Tom.