Anxiety

Spirals and tightens and frightens
me.
Heart
the core of this centrifugal vortex.
Squeezed.
Embody
the feelings and experience emotion.
Observe
tenderly.
Acknowledge and place them down
carefully.
Walk away.

Psychodynamic

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17.09.2013 – On starting my masters….

One of a roomful of eager disciples I strain for every

word and

nuance.

Thirty two of us sitting in this one studio have

travelled

from parts far across the world and not so far;

Some have waited for years for

THIS.

 

THIS is the beginning of a deep and complex journey into

‘self’.

All of us aware of the adventures ahead of us and

some a little

afraid.

In smaller groups we create an image of self.

How intimate this is

and how exposing

too.

Revealing me to the

world.

 

 

 

05/09/13 – Tim kissed my hand

Jim kissed my hand today when he came through the door.
Something more,
in fact he kissed my hand,
then pressed his forehead to it.
A gesture
of supplication or love?
or surrender
to something above
and beyond his control.

The tumour in Jim’s head takes up too much space now.
I wonder how
long we have him with us to make us laugh
with his funny faces
and sometimes
inappropriate behaviour.
Or fits.
I cannot forget his age

is the same as that of my son Tom.